My Doubtful Mind
18 April - 25 May 2008
David ROSETZKY
Self Talk
2008
sound installation
Self Talk
When your energy is cluttered by emotional baggage and uncertainty
When you feel like you don't actually think
When thoughts come and just keep coming and it's just a big moosh
When it's just a bombardment of ideas or things and it's hard to focus
When you would like to approach the situation that you face with confidence
When you used to be go-getum and self motivated
When the way you behave is foreign to whom you are
When a shift of circumstances changes who you are
When you feel overcome by a question
When you wish you could change
When you reflect on yourself and the problems you have had with your family or friends and whatever things have affected the way you are now
When you think about all those things
When you have been on slippery slopes
When you worry about the effects of what you say
When it's really quite an effort
When you cant ever know what you think
When you would hate to think that someone thought you were needy
When you wonder how far it's going to go
When your not making sense and you sound like you are
How do feel about compromise?
What is the threshold of going too far?
Do you admire certainty?
Are you fully confident that you can achieve what you want to achieve?
Do you fear being weak, not getting your own way, exerting your will
Do you think that you stay the same or do you improve?
Do you find yourself wanting to say - am I invisible?
Do you have a fear of being destructive in relationships?
Do you fade into the background?
When you feel there is an expectation
When you don't need to fit into that construct
for that moment you are in a really good place
then you tell yourself not to project too far into the future
to live more in the present moment
to just relax and be where you are, with who you are with and not worry so much about what you should be doing
when you tell yourself to really experience the experience that you are having
when actually you never remember to do it when you are actually in the situation that you are having and you only remember to do it afterwards
when you don't like the idea of being needy
and wouldn't want to be thought of as anything less than perfect
think about it
then you could think about what is important and shift the approach to be a conscious kind of thing
have a bit of a reassessment about what your desires are, what your goals are and devise a bit of a plan about how to achieve them
if you don't have that - a plan - often you are just waiting for an opportunity to come along and it does not necessarily present itself. You need to develop a strategy
when you feel like there is so much to think about
and you feel unable to address the different aspects of your life
when you feel there are areas that are not being given the attention that they deserve
when you have to make choices
When you notice that you are really concerned about what your behaviour is to other people when you could shift that around a bit by being more aware of other people, what they are saying and what they are doing, I suppose to listen more without worrying so much about what you should say, to relax a bit and just enjoy simple things, sometimes mundane exchanges can be really quite satisfying
when you take advice as criticism
when you want to have a true understanding of who you are and why you do things
if you could just be open and honest and respond
if you could tell yourself to walk into every situation and be comfortable
if you could enjoy being comfortable
if you could know what you think
if you could have more clarity
if you could have time for your thoughts
if you could give your thoughts the weight that they deserve
If you could tell yourself to talk about yourself even if it's boring
If you could think of yourself as plural and the other people around you are a part of yourself
Do you want to be someone who is surrounded in self-denials?
Do you want to be someone who is easily forgotten?
Do you struggle to talk about yourself
And you don't want to listen all the time
How do you try to improve yourself?
How do you prepare yourself to do something?
Are there any personal issues you would like to overcome?
Do you have a fear of not caring for, not helping others?
Do you fear causing other people pain or discomfort by being honest?
Do you fear expressing your feelings, opinions, yourself?
Do you feel you come across as needy?
When you cant reveal anything about yourself there is probably something you are avoiding by focussing on other people
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